Friday, August 24, 2012

Scared

Well, Friday can't get here soon enough! I spent this past weekend in complete and utter fear.

 I felt a lump on my breast about 3 weeks ago. I had just made an appointment for my mammogram screening, so I didn't really say anything to anyone, including the dr. I went in for the screening on August 13th. The tech that was doing it was very concerned that I had not called my dr, but she did the screening anyway. When I left, I called Dr. Pitcher and she wanted to see me in within the next two days. I went and she was very concerned after feeling the lump. She referred me to a specialist at the Breast Center. They could not see me until yesterday (Monday). So, hince the title of this blog....I spent all weekend and this past week in fear. I have been scared before, like when Kristi had her seizure or when I saw Brittany wreck the 4wheeler, but never a fear that last this long. NOW I have to wait till Friday! I went to Dr. Robbins yesterday (Monday) and found out this lump is a solid mass, whatever that means. She did a biopsy that same day, and now we wait to see if it is cancer.

That time came today,  Friday August 24th,  at 11:30am.
Me waiting for Dr Robbins, with a fake smile!

I have absolutely the best support system and an army behind me to get through this, so we will! Kim stayed by my side all day yesterday and went to the appointment with me. She is truly a blessing in my life, as is Cissy. They both stayed over here last night drinking wine till 10:30! The hole in my boob is a little sore, but it is the shoulder that really hurts. It did not like the position it was in on the table. I was supposed  to have shoulder surgery on August 29th, but that was promptly cancelled.

I am going to stay upbeat and positive and surround myself with people I love! This to shall pass!
Ok, so by now everyone knows that this is cancer. You might also know, if you know me....this ain't gonna get me down. I am strong and I got it from the strongest woman I know- my mama!! We will keep you posted through this blog. Kim, Lloyd or Cindi will keep it updated if I am unable. I have gone through bad times before and I know the people I have behind me. Please everyone be there for my girls- Kristi, Brittany, Cindi and Kim ( even though she stays strong on the outside) needs your support.

God bless you all and thank you for being here for us!! We will keep you posted. Next step is the MRI, that will tell more and then we will go from there. Let's just pray I am back to my old self by October 20!! Kristi's wedding.

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